Death Wish

"I wish you would just die" 

That's what I say when I am angry. I can remember how many times I have wished someone else's death. I had this bad habit on wishing that some people just die. It aggravates when I am super mad and I cannot contain the hatred in my heart so I just randomly blurt it out to the universe. In my wish, I curse them and I imagine their deaths. I convince myself on how my life would be better if they would just die. I think of all the bad things that the person caused me. I think of all their flaws and their bad traits. I think of them as bad people and that they deserve my wish. 

I believe in the law of attraction and whatever your mind can think can happen. I am almost scared that whomever deaths I wish for will happen so I immediately take it back from the uiniverse once my anger subsided. But sometimes I can't just help myself and I just wish illness on people. The worst part is, the people I wish dead are the people that are really close to me.

Maybe I am responsible for someone's death because I did wish for it to happen more than once. I repeated the death in my head that when it happened, I was not actually surprised because I knew I wanted it and I let the universe knew about it. So they took him. 

Seems like a confession of a murderer. If I could do it all over again maybe I'd think twice before I wish again. 

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