Pressure

I do not respond to pressure. I repeat, I would not act even if you tell me to. In fact, I would do the exact opposite so I can piss you off, intentionally. I do not understand my satisfaction in that reaction but I do. I feel it and I love it. When people tell me I am getting fat, it does not motivate me to go to the gym. In fact, when they tell me that, I will eat more. What motivates me is myself. I am my own motivation. When I start to understand my problem or issue, this is when I act. I make my brain understand it and act on it. I will exercise and not eat more. I command myself to do that. And the thing that pisses me off when people tell me off is the fact that don't they know that I know that already? Seriously it is my body. I get to see it everyday, so I know when there are changes in it.

When my grades are slipping,  I do not need any reminder that I need to study more because I will study more. Don't remind myself again and again because I will deliver and I will do it. Please just stop saying it again and again if you want me to do it for you.

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