Or maybe I just did not care anymore. I started to feel unimportant so I just let it all go and moved on to better things like watching my shows. I like watching my shows which I know you hate because it gives me a sense of happiness which you could not give. My shows keep me sane. I live vicariously through them and when I need them, they are just there unlike you. I tried to make things work out. You, on the other hand, say that everything's well and that you are doing your best and that you care for me. Well, mister, action speaks louder than words. And you actions say otherwise. I feel the opposite. I try to tell myself that maybe the problem was with myself. Maybe I was too clingy and that you needed space. So 10 minutes out of your 24 hours is a bit too much? Because I am so sure I am not getting any of it. I give you my time but you never return it. I do not even know what is going on with your life and honestly, when I think about you, all I could think about is the stress that you are going to cause me. Your apathy is stressing me real bad. You pretend to care but it is too superficial. I wanted to move on away from you because maybe you are weighing me down, don't you think? Or am I being just too dramatic? But each and everyday that you ignore me is another day that gives me the reason not to even make any effort for you because I do not think you deserve any.
You don't text me all day. I ended up texting you. You suddenly remember that you, in fact, have a girlfriend. You tell me to call you. I make up excuses because I do not want to talk to you because it would never be the same again.
Love is supposed to be simple, happy and helpful. It is exactly the opposite with you.
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