Who you people

I noticed how many more clicks my blog has been getting. I am not sure if those were mistakes or just bots on the net. Anyhoo, I hid my profile because I wanted to write freely without being judge. I want this blog to be my freedom space, a space where I can write anything and everything. So I guess my last post was a little overdramatic. Cause guess what, we kissed and made up. My emotions are in check and I am happy again. I am too transparent for my life so it is impossible not to know what I am feeling and thinking as of the moment. My transparency also annoys me because it hurts me to think how people know what I am actually feeling and still be insensitive about it like how can you not tell???? HOW? WHAT? So I hate it every time I have to explain myself. How can you not get me? I am as simple as 1 2 3. But back to who reads my blog, to all of you who get to read this now, please know that what I write now will be part of history later. 

My whole body hurts especially my left shoulder. I strongly feel that there is really something wrong about it. I asked one of my physiotherapist friend and she gave me some exercises I can do to strengthen my back. Also, I can do more stretches so it can get better. My throat is also hurting. See, everything of me hurts. It must be the weather. Sometimes it is too cold, sometimes it is fine that I do not need to wear my puffer jacket. Tomorrow I have to go to work and even if it is only going to be a 5- hour shift, I am lazy to go. I feel like if I have a car I won't be lazy anymore to go to work. But I can't buy one yet since I do not have my license. I am such a loser. I am too old not to have a license but I didn't feel the need to until today. I always thought that I would be rich and I would have someone to drive me around. Guess what, the universe did not approve. I have to work hard to earn a small amount of money but I guess that is just enough for the meantime. I can't complain because at least I have enough some people do not have any. 

Appreciating and not hating, 

E