Girlfriends

I don't really have a best friend. I have one that I call my ultimate best friend because I call her that since the vacation before grade 2 but that was the closest our relationship got. We lost touch during our College years when we went to different Universities. We never really exerted that much of an effort to stay close and connected. I can't solely blame the situation because we were fleeting by the end of High School anyway. During College, we have probably set different priorities like studying and becoming a dean's lister versus boys and partying. I think I had chosen the latter. It took a while for me to adjust in my university years. At first, I was tagged as a "probinsyana" which I am actually proud of. I have my accent to go with it and I am not ashamed of it, in fact, I used it to make friends and to be an endearing person. I am not sure how many people I have fooled, or maybe charmed with that accent.

At first, I hated College, and I could not appreciate any one of my classmates. I only had three friends and that was it. I did not plan to push it further nor have I plan to open up with many more people. Besides, I have my High School friends to rely on. As a proof of my unwillingness to make friends and open up with others, during my 18th birthday, I had only invited my High School classmates to celebrate. I regret it to this date.

It was not until I had my heart broken that I felt I needed a change, that I had to open up and get out of my comfort zone. I was finally getting out of my cocoon. I started changing my wardrobe, my choice of shoes, my choice of purses, and I started to widen my social circle. I started to have girl friends, like real ones that are into widening their social circles as well. I kept all of them as my friends and I loved all of them. I was part of different circles and I was happy with all the relationship I developed out of my comfort zone.

To this date, I maintained close ties with my girls. It is nice to belong to a group where they understand you, they care about you and where they develop an atmosphere and a culture where you can be better. It is a group where they would be considerate of your face and overall appearance before posting any picture on any social networking sites/apps. They don't post without approval. It is a group that showers you compliments when you need to hear them when your insecurity starts to creep in. And it is a group ready to listen when you need to rant on how fat you feel you are or how you hate your job or how there's this girl who you think shouldn't be as close to your boyfriend and all the life questions about your skin, health, love and family. Name it and they will try their best to help with no judgments or whatsoever. Best of all, they are ready to hear your chismis -- be it Hollywood or Local Show business.

I think they have set high standards that's why I can't seem to move on from them. And in my prayers, I always ask God if He can send me friends as awesome as my girls back home because the truth is, nothing compares to them. They are the best. I hope one day I can find another group that are as awesome as they are or even just a little bit close.

These girls are pretty much my sisters, not by blood but in my heart.

E