Figuring it out

I was frustrated yesterday simply because my driving lesson did not push through. I feel that my driving instructor was so irresponsible, it was so hard just to even reach him. I tried his phone number and I tried the school's registered number to no avail. Finally, I tried the one registered on Google. Thanks, Google!

I was semi-prodiuctive yesterday, doing errands for my mother and father, cleaning the house -- which I loved very much -- and going grocery shopping. I love doing things by myself because I feel like I do not have to rely on anyone to be happy or to survive the day. I learned independency when I was in Pre-School. I remembered doing my homework by myself with no help from my parents. My mother was too exhausted from work and too impatient to tolerate me. My father was with his friends, probably drinking his day or night away. It was not a very happy feeling, needing help and not getting any. I had to push myself to do it even when I did not know how to answer the questions. I ended up not doing some of my homework simply cause I was not able to figure it out and for the parts that I thought I figured out, they were mostly wrong.

I learned the hard way but I was able to use it now to my advantage because when I am doing my essays for University, I did not need anyone's help. I only need myself to figure it out.

Now that I am older, there are things in life that I have yet to figure out to see how it all shakes up. And I mean, my future like what I want to have as a career, who to marry, what car to drive, what to eat to stay healthy, which exercise regimen to follow to stay fit, which friends to keep and a lot more. I am figuring things out as I move forward in my life but there is something that has been bothering me. I am not so sure if I am yet to commit a mistake or if this is really what I wanted to be happy. You see, happiness is a choice. But I think the choice I had made is not going to make me happy. I have yet to find out.

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